Wednesday, March 5, 2014

OLD PICTURES

On the book shelves, on either side of my desk are lots of pictures. I can look on one side and see a copy of an old photo of my  great, great grandmother, Mary Hand Nelson Ray and her son, my great grandfather, Wiley Andrew Jackson Nelson.  I can see a picture of my dad, Ralph Collum when he was playing baseball in the CCC service (Citizens Conservation Corp).  There are the professional photographs by Olin Mills of my children and their families and the snap shots of Strawberry and Perrin ridin’ the tractor with Grump. 

As my eyes move on from photo to photo I see another picture of my dad, the years have whetted down the muscles and chiseled lines and wrinkles in his face but he stands straight and tall even while using his walking stick as a prop as he visits the grave of his great grandfather in Knoxville, Tennessee.  And there is a picture of Granny (my mom) sitting in the swing on our front porch on a bright sunny day.

All wonderful pictures, priceless pictures to me, each containing wonderful memories of days gone by.  I smile as I think of the days those pictures were taken.  I remember the voices and the touches from those that I love. I wonder, can those who have gone on before me remember me?” 

Does God allow them to retain the memories of those great time here?  Can they see our faces? Can they hear what we say and see what we are doing?  Does the almighty Father, who by the way, can do anything He wants, allow them to sense the enjoyment of those times here on earth? 

I catch myself praying for them sometime.  I prayed for them for so long.  I watched as both Dad and Mom’s health diminished and their ability to care for themselves dwindled away and I called out to God to help them.  Sometimes as I pray I ask God, just bless them special today.  Oh, I know they are not in pain.  I know they are not sad.  I don’t know what people do in Paradise but I’m positive they don’t sit around and mope and think about how sad it is to be away from their family and loved ones.  But I just ask God to give them a special blessing.  I kind of think He does that. 

The pictures bring all those thoughts to mind I guess. 

I am less than four months from retiring from my job with the Emergency Management Agency of Chilton County.  I’ve been here, doing this job for 30 years.  As I was cleaning out drawers and shelves I realized that I had a very large box of newspaper clippings and snapshots of things that I’ve been involved with over the years.  Photos of wrecks I’ve worked and fires I’ve fought.  Interviews I’ve given and stories about  the projects we’ve undertaken.  Pictures, memories, reminders. 

But as I sit here this morning pondering these things I notice another picture on the shelf. Actually I have several copies of the same photo.  I don’t know who painted it.  I can’t give credit to the artist. But I’ll try to describe it to you. 

There is a young man, faded jeans, dirty t-shirt, his eyes are shut and in his hand is a hammer.  In the background is nothing but darkness.  He looks exhausted and is slumping and not able to hold himself up. His hands hang limp by his side. Behind him is the artist’s depiction of Jesus.  Jesus is reaching around the young man supporting him, and holding him up to keep him from falling. His nail pierced hands look strong as He supports and holds up the man who nailed him to the cross.

I will no doubt forget all the other pictures one day.  I won’t remember the stories about projects, and rescues and events.  I may even forget my relatives, living and dead.  I may not be able to call your name or recognize your face.  But may I never forget those hands.  May I never forget those loving, strong hands that were there to catch me when I was weak, and unable to stand.  May my mind forever retain the memory of the time when I was guilty, the evidence that would convict me still in my hands and the one that I had hurt so deeply reaching down and holding me. 

There is a lot I don’t know about this stuff called life, death and eternity.  But I am confident that here, there, now, then or in that place where time does not exist, even though I’ve never seen them with my eyes,  I will remember those hands and what they have done for me. 

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